I'm not supposed to write this and I'm not seeking for some pity...but I'm just fed up with being quiet and hiding everything as we normally do...I just can't do that anymore...I guess that's what brought us in this situation at first last night..
My mum an I came home late last night - we three (my sis, my mother and me) were watching a play til like 11pm brought my sis back home and drove home.
As soon as we arrived my mum and my father got into a fight - again...He started to threaten her and I was just sooo angry that I got in the middle between them and started provoke him...that I shouldn't have done. He started shouting at me and threaten me - and I thought: No I gotta make this clear he can't threaten us in our own home...
Well he can. My mum and me were going upstairs and thought it was all over - but it was just the beginning...he came back - started throwing things at us...vases, a radio, books...then my mum and me locked us into the bathroom. But he started banging with the broken stereo at the door - til it broke.
I shouted and broke everything we had. I called the police. He wouldn't stop until we came out and apologise for getting on his nerves. But I thought he'd kill us...so we tried hiding. But then I realised the lock started breaking - so I opened the door and apologised -
So he calmed down a bit - went downstairs just to come up again - but my mum and me went up into my room hiding there - with my doog which was trembeling. I really thought it was over - I thought he'd kill us...I was so afraid...
He's beaten us before -but that was ten years ago..
Then the police came - but didn't help much. Calmed him down a bit - but the policeman (there was a woman as well) was a real arse! He said things like: when you're married you gotta go through good as bad times and he probably got reason to do so and things like that.
So I realised they would not be of any help. I got upstairs packed a few things and took my mum and drove to my sister.
Where we stayed awake shaking, crying and afraid of him fallowing us...
Now it's morning 11am and my mum's gotta work tonight (She's a midwife) so we came back...
She says there's like nothing we can do - but wait and see whether he get's better - or throw him out - which she's kinda not ready to do - and he's not willing to do...We just lost an enormous amount of money due to this fucking crisis - so she's afraid of moving out - and me...I'm studying at university - here we do not have a campus to live on.
So I guess we just wait and see -
but I'm so so afraid..:I don't know what's gonna happen next - so far we haven't spoken a word with him.
I know I should move out - I know we all should move out. But thing is - We're the only one living in Switzerland - the rest of our family is somewhere in Germany/Italy/France - mainly Germany- so my mum's afraid and me a bit too ..
so...anyone got a similar experience? Or...? Anything?
